ER, REALLY 2020?

FFS.

I cannot believe what 2020 is up to. I honestly thought that 2019 was a bit of a shitter, and came into 2020 like “yeah baby, can you feel the amazing energy of this year coming… BLAH BLAH BLAH” and LOOK WHAT HAPPENED.

Ok, so we are (currently) healthy, I'm getting to spend loads of time with my kids (ummmm) and the weather is nice (yay!) but really, this social distancing thing is starting to grate a little.

I’m a hugger. And also slightly autistic in that I like to speak to people FACE TO FACE as my brain (as you all probs know) is a little bit dodge and so I will invent stories from something as ridiculous as one less ‘x’ than normal at the end of a text message. Yes. I am THAT person. I used to count the kisses on Jeff’s whatsapp’s when we first started going out and would get stressed out if they were an even number. What a douchebag. (me, not him.)

Workwise, I have actually been busier than usual, which, USUALLY, would make my brain feel better, but due to the situation (aka zooming and FaceTiming) I am not getting the usual validation and feeling of ‘making a difference’ that I do normally get from teaching physically face to face. What i’m saying is i miss the physical presence of BODIES. And ENERGY. I can feel my energy levels goign up and down (currently on a down cycle) and no amount of sleep is helping! WAH. I feel like Donkey in Shrek. “i need a hug” .

ANYWAY. Soz to bore you all with this. My brain normally stops me posting blogs where I actually talk about how I feel (protecting itself probably) but I am going to press “publish” before I have too much time to think about it!!

And am also going to start blogging more often! So hopefully next time I will have something way funnier and WAY more interesting to say!!!

Laters Potaters.

MOI xxx