YES OR NO...

Ever feel like you are always saying no? “No, I can’t do that, what if I fail?” or “Oh no, I wouldn’t do that! I’m not good enough. There are far more talented/clever/beautiful (insert adjective here) people than me doing it!”

Well, i’ve got news for you. There will ALWAYS be someone smarter, prettier, more talented, flexible than you. And there will always be someone more “whatever it is” than them. So why should you let it stop YOU? Do you know what the one thing you’ve got that they don’t is? It’s your SELF. You are 100% unique and amazing JUST AS YOU ARE. And nobody can ever change that or beat you at it. So the only thing you can do is to STAY TRUE to that person. The you that you dream of being.

I’m 42. And i’ve spent the last 20+ years saying “no” to everything that scared me. I was so scared to fail. I was so scared of comparing myself to other people (which i did all the time anyway without even pursuing my dreams, so that was a waste of time) and coming up wanting. I always felt “not good enough” or the thought of attempting something that was out of my comfort zone was so horrifying that I would rather not even give it a go.

But one day, I suddenly thought, “ ENOUGH!!! FUCK OFF BRAIN!!!”. And I decided to at least TRY to do something about it. One last shot to try and actually EMBRACE my life. I wanted to LOVE my life. To fulfil my potential (which i felt was far far greater than where I was at). To be FREE from self-doubt, self flagellation. I mean, what did I have to lose? (Just to put this into context, I have been medicated for many years, which quietened most of the anxiety and certainly the horrific swirling vortex of sheer panic/depression that I have experienced several times in my life, but never changed all those negative thought patterns in my brain.) And then conversely, what did i have to gain? Only EVERYTHING.

I embarked on what I realise was in actual fact not the beginning of my journey into ‘self’ but everything that I had been doing up to this point had got me to this next step. Years of yoga, meditation, self-study, therapy and learning had got me to this point where I was at last able to make a CHOICE. (This choice had not previously been available to me, or so I thought.) And I’m not even saying that I have got to the perceived ‘destination’. Life is a series of developments within ourselves and we are always learning, always evolving. But sometimes you need some outside help to get there. And that’s what I did.

And then, I realised, I’ve always been this way. Wanting to make people feel included, to make them feel loved, safe and happy in whatever role I have chosen career wise or relationship. My life purpose is to be OF SERVICE. There is nothing more important to me than to raise the vibrations of everyone I can. To help them achieve their absolute BEST self. Not to be their idea of what other people expect of them, but to be true to who they are. To their core values and beliefs.

And so as I carry on with my life’s work of breaking through my comfort zones, and striving to be the best ME I can be, I’m going to do everything I can to help you be the best YOU that you can be.

Things are going to be shifting a little bit here at old Yoga Pad Henley. I’m excited, I’m nervous, but I am going to give it my all. And I’m going to keep you posted along the way.

Wishing you all so much love and peace,

Isie xxx

ps. I am not saying that everyone’s journey will be the same as mine, that would be weird. We all have our own baggage to deal with and our own tolerance points. More on that another time. xxx